.:I am livejournal?

Has a lot of bars. I dig that. I also dig being old enough to drink.

www.downstar.vox.com

I write in my vox a lot more.

Umm my birthday just passed?

I have a kitten she's a badass and asleep on my lap right now.

I can bench press 210lbs x 2 that's my max I feel accomplished.

Car coming soon? No Vroom Vroom more of a let's save gas and jam music car :D cause that's how it goes down.

Yesterday night and today made me realize just how tired I am of Houston. I usually go to San Antonio for little while to get a break but this time it didn't help any.

I talked to nick last night, he already has a job for me if I go to SA for awhile and a place to stay. I think I might just leave for a few months just to get a break. Everyday down here is like clockwork. I have a bunch of friends but honestly if we were in a fight or some life or death situation, I'd probably let most of them die except for a few. I feel like I have 0 attachments here.

I bought a ticket to a show called fallcore, If I still feel like this in a week or so, I plan on being in SA by then. Who knows though I get like this sometimes :O.

So I'm bored and have random things on my mind. I'd love to go on a walk right now and chatter for an hour or so but that's not really possible since I don't have anyone to go on a walk with. I'm tired and need to sleep but I honestly don't want to. A lot of things in Houston make me feel uncomfortable as do a lot of people. I suppose it'll go away.

Man I totally hate how you hang out with a group of friends and at the end of the night all the couples go to bed and you are sitting alone in the living room watching tv. I think that's happened to me one to many times lately. I never get used to it either haha, It's like "Night Everyone"...shit what do I do now?

Anyways I need to go to the gym like insanely bad. I miss it like wh0a.

P.S-I want to be an animorph god they owned.

I feel everywhere right now.

haha im on xavier's lj we just worked out and im tired as shit and have a headache xavier is dropping bombs at the moment well this has been marc on xavier's lj good day bitches

Yeah, I feel like writing in this one more time because I can do that. I just took a shower I feel very clean and cleansed showers with short hair are something I'll never get tired of seriously. I need a haircut soon very soon it's already getting to long again.

So I talked to Jen, I think that's one of the things I like most about her if I have something serious I need to discuss with her she never blows up on me and makes the situation hard. We always tend to keep the conversation civil even if it gets to the point where one of us is upset. She just wants to be friends which is alright with me, I mean yeah I would like to be with her but I respect her a lot and if that is what she wants I ~Want~ to still be friends with her. Our friendship means more to me then most do.

I can honestly say the first week we spent together mean more to me then
anything has in a long time. Falling asleep with her and waking up to
her was an amazing feeling. Our talks and all our conversations were
things I won't forget.

I was in love with the fact I thought I might have a future with this
girl but knowing I still have her friendship is still something I think
I should be grateful for.

I suppose its time to look forward to the future but If things with her
and I were to change again, I wouldn't stop it at all. Who knows what
the future holds.


wow P.S-My grammar is horrrriblleee but I am to lazy to fix it haha.

I don't use my livejournal enough. My feelings right now are a mess well not really I'm pretty situated when it comes to everything in my life except women as always. It seems like the topic at hand I can never figure out. I find the girl I want I somehow blow it without knowing, Girls want me I just want to be friends and feel badly afterwards.

Anyways my minds being dumb.

I think I'm going to try to head to SA sometime next week since I promised Lavette I'd go to her graduation and I really need to see everyone. Things in houston have been pretty clam everything starting to get settled into the same old routine. I dislike that it's usually what makes me start looking for different friends.

Lately though I've felt the people I was closest to did not think of me like I thought, sometimes I feel very expandable with everyone I hang out with. Maybe I am just overreacting.

Satuday I help my friend Kenneth move into his new apartment, I'm quite excited I really want a good workout, I was suppose to start going to the gym 3 days a week with my gf who is now my ex-gf so now I don't really know if I'll be going to the gym so this will be nice just to stretch the muscles.

I miss getting a lot of txt msgs.

Why the fuck does Houston not having any Mid-Night showings for Silent Hill or am I just missing it?

My buddies

www.myspace.com/mylastwar

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www.purevolume.com/mylastwar

if you don't like hardcore I am le sorry =[

Back to bed I go

I really need to start sleeping at an earlier time. Since around 3 weeks ago everything has flipped upside down in a good way I suppose. I started hanging out with a lot of new people who I pretty much see on a daily basis and on weekends now. It's awesome but it drains the hell out of me.

It's nice having an active life again though. I mean I love all my friends but the only thing I was looking forward to was a lame ass movie on friday nights..I'm just glad I have something to look forward to on a daily basis now.

I need to go to cypress to see Lang at least to say hello but it's hard. I have a life, I have things I need to do and breaking it all off to go to cypress isn't that easy. I feel like I need to explain myself sometimes but then I realize I know I'm not purposefully not going so it's whatever.

I'm finally glad I'm getting the kind of friends I have in schertz which are the ones I'll always want to be around. I plan on visiting schertz soon though because I still miss everyone.

Xavier is sleepy

I have a sidekick II I miss my sidekick I

=[ Sidekick III better own

P.S I want thin mints

I <3 My Lj Planner

Jan 28th-SAT's must sleep day before
Feb 3rd-Exams
Late Feb-Schertz
Whenever SXSW is-Schertz hopefully going to Austin with my buddies like last year.
(this one is pretty iffy)Early May-New Jersey? Oh Damn son Xavier in NJ
Summer Time-Living in SA?

I had a good weekend and some excellent rum, how is everyone =]?

I've been studying a lot, I was talking to a couple of my friends non have scored higher than an 1800 on the "new" SATs. Freaks me out but I honestly can't be studying more than I already have. People are coming over and bringing me food just to hang out because I don't really want to go out I just want to study. The whole me being the only one who will going to college(in my family) is a big motivation for me to keep studying and not slack.

Yesterday I did go out though, Chris is going to the Army soon so I decided we should see each other. Stephanie and Steve also showed up after meeting their birth family(yay they are part beaner like me also =O). We went to PtPt for no damn reason and after that we went to dinner. It was fun felt like I was back in 8th grade haha. I'm still going to the gym I love it so much, I honestly didn't think I could keep it up this long.

( Random Piczzzss/sz? )

So how is everyone? I'm doing pretty dandy just making the gym a daily routine I've gone the past 7 days(I think). It's getting pretty addicting honestly I'm starting to like it a lot. I'm going to try and go at least everyday for awhile. Dave wanted to check out "In The Groove 2" at PtPt. I could say I wasn't excited..but I'd be lieing. I use to like in the groove so I was pretty hyped up. We went and played and I completely wasn't feeling it at all. I have a lot of stamina from the gym and etc but I just stopped seeing the point in exhausting myself and pushing myself for a score on some game.

So, I suppose I'm completely done with any type of bemani finally I thought I'd still like in the groove but I was wrong. Dave is totally into it though. I'm glad he found something he likes to do. I'd rather stay home and just study, hang out, and rest for the gym the next day. I'm already feeling like I'm in better shape which is a great feeling.

I should be heading back to Schertz after Valentines day probably hang out for a while. Shaun and I are going to talk about getting an apartment together or something while I'm down(the apartments for the summertime etc). I have some money saved up cause of MapleStory oh how that game has made more profits than I could imagine in my wildest dreams.


Oh God SAT's Are January 28th not February 3rd I mixed it up with one of my Exams since I take them on different times. Oh god....I'm freaking out now I have less time to study. I need to call in the morning and make sure about all this =[

So Uh I wanted USC to win but they didn't.

Which means this weekend or friday Austin will be blown up with parties. I think someone should take me =)

Finally back home for a good while, I had a lot of fun in schertz but I did miss houston at times. So much craziness happened down in SA. I did manage to check out the UTSA campus I like it a lot but I still need to check out other places before I even think about going somewhere.

New Years was fun, The whole week I was way to into the Oh lord I need a new years kiss but when the day finally came I finally calmed myself and was like I'm going to have the time of my life with my friends and do what we always do.

New Years Resolution?
Keep in touch with everyone
Can't stop the studying either

I'll probably be heading out of town in a month or a little longer. Stephanie and Pete I need to see both of you soon :P everyone else also so I can say hi and see how everyone is.

Mad thanks to Shaun for us being the badass Super Hero team we were this New Years. It wouldn't of been as fun without you.

Merry Christmas

I can finally join the cool I got an ipod for christmas club.


I'll be back in schertx in 3 days so if anyone wants to hang out let's do it now =O

Schertz is off the hook I'm going to miss it so much. I'm going to miss certain people so much. Everything just continued where it left off. Clint and I are on good terms again which is awesome.

I got to know someone and I'm really glad I did she's awesome.

I'm leaving friday but I'm thinking about coming back for new years yeahhhhh.